100

I live for 100.

100% certainty within decisions, giving 100% to the tasks, people & schedule before me, but even more so, expecting 100% from myself and those around me. 

And it's exhausting.

These weights I've created and placed upon myself are impossibly heavy, even for my strong flesh.

I base my worth on being 100, when the only 100 God asks of me is my heart.

He wants it all, but here I am giving over the buried yuck in my heart apprehensively when I know that I can do so boldly. 

I want to live in 100% surrender, 100% obedience & 100% acceptance of the grace lavished upon me when I don't.

I want to shake off my impossible standards of perfection and lay my mess before The Lord.